So it’s been a while hasn’t it? It’s August, I haven’t wrote here since January, wow, I hadn’t realized it was that long, does it matter though? Not much has changed, gotten worse actually, but that’s life I guess.
I’ve been having weird dreams lately when I eventually get to sleep. Always have issues sleeping, never sleep through the night, only get a couple to a few hours of sleep per night but lately I’ve been dreaming about dead people. Last night both my mom and dad were in my dream, and they’re dead. I woke up in like a haze when my alarm went off at 4:30am like almost still in the dream and it was fresh in my mind but fading. I don’t know, it was just weird, I’ve been having weird dreams lately and most of them have dead people in them and people I used to know.
I hate people, especially my neighbor, he egged my van.
This morning I took my son to school and noticed someone egged his car, whatever not my problem. We live on a main avenue and our vehicles have been egged, hit, hit with paintballs, flat tires, mirrors knocked off, keyed and my favorite was when someone loosened all the lug nuts on my front passenger tire and I almost wrecked.His car being egged, well, I didn’t think anything of it at all and went about my business.
A few hours later he gets company and they tell him his car got egged. I know this because our houses are only about 10 feet apart and the windows were open, I could hear everything plain and clear. The whole conversation. He proceeds to automatically blame me and he also has a truck that apparently had gotten flat tires and other damage done to it, and he blames me for that too it seems.
I don’t know the guy, don’t know his name, he’s rarely home. Spoke to him once this summer and asked him to keep the noise down as he had people over and was outside with them and it was about 12:30am and my wife gets up at 5am and I do to as my son was going to summer camp early in the morning. I asked him to keep it down and they got quiet and that was the end of it, it was all good or so I thought.
Apparently this guy blames me for all this shit going on. he’s not worth my time or energy, and why the hell am I getting blamed?
Seriously, I must attract assholes for whatever reason. I don’t bother anyone, I try not to even leave the damn house unless I absolutely have to.
So I don’t know what the hell I’m supposed to do now. I did go to the police and they said there’s nothing they can do as there’s no proof, just a REALLY big coincidence that my van gets egged right after he blames me for his car getting egged.The officer understood and yeah he thinks the guy egged my van, but there’s nothing he can do about it without proof.
Life sucks, I just want to be left alone really….
I hate going out and dealing with people anymore, most everyone I meet is rude and ignorant and just doesn’t care about anyone but themselves and they feel entitled to just whatever and everything.
I went to Dollar Tree the other day to pick up a few things and I use a cane to walk, it sucks, but I have to and this guy held the door open for me and I said thanks, didn’t yell it or anything but apparently it wasn’t loud enough for him.
He followed me into the store and got behind when I was getting a cart and he was mumbling about how I was rude and how I could have at least said thank you to him for holding the door open for me. I did say thanks, guess he didn’t hear me, guess it wasn’t loud enough. Not sure what exactly he wanted from me, to yell it out so everyone heard that he was this wonderful person for holding the door open for me?!
I said ‘excuse me, but I did say thank you, I guess you didn’t hear me say it, and I’m sorry it wasn’t loud enough for you’
He proceeds to threaten to punch me in the head because I was being rude to him and that I should have said it louder so he heard it.
Since when do people have to be praised loudly for doing something decent for a fellow human being?
What kind of society have we become that I’m going to get threatened with physical violence for not saying thank you loud enough?
I hate going out, I hate people more and more everyday…..
Some say that ‘hate’ is a strong word, but that’s how I feel really. I was told by someone I know that I’m a misanthrope and the dictionary says that is: “a person who dislikes humankind and avoids human society” and yeah that’s me for sure. I wasn’t always like that but I’ve been fucked over so many times by people I trusted and thought were friends that I’m just done.
I don’t understand, doesn’t everyone have a cellphone these days? I’ve got neighbors who have people picking them up at all hours and just sit in front of the house honking their horn. It’s annoying as hell and I think it’s rude. Why can’t you just call when you get in front of the house, or better yet call when you’re close and say ‘be outside, I’m one minute away’ but no, they’d rather sit there and honk the horn non-stop and annoy everyone…
I don’t know, just felt the need to rant about that…