Rants!

My rantings…

Suicide’s an Alternative

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I haven’t been writing much here or anywhere really for a long time as I’m dealing with a lot of bad shit in my life and battling depression I guess you could say, not that anyone really gives a shit really about what I have to say so it probably doesn’t really matter if I write or not, no one would miss me I’m sure…

I See Dead People….In My Dreams…

I’ve been having weird dreams lately when I eventually get to sleep. Always have issues sleeping, never sleep through the night, only get a couple to a few hours of sleep per night but lately I’ve been dreaming about dead people. Last night both my mom and dad were in my dream, and they’re dead. I woke up in like a haze when my alarm went off at 4:30am like almost still in the dream and it was fresh in my mind but fading. I don’t know, it was just weird, I’ve been having weird dreams lately and most of them have dead people in them and people I used to know.

 

I Just Want to Be Left Alone

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I really just want to be left alone.

I don’t bother anyone. I don’t talk to anyone. I don’t leave my house unless I absolutely have to. I don’t speak to my neighbors, I tried that and it ended up bad and it still hasn’t stopped. Then the upstairs neighbor has started stuff with me as well.

I Hate People, Especially My Neighbor Now

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I hate people, especially my neighbor, he egged my van.

This morning I took my son to school and noticed someone egged his car, whatever not my problem. We live on a main avenue and our vehicles have been egged, hit, hit with paintballs, flat tires, mirrors knocked off, keyed and my favorite was when someone loosened all the lug nuts on my front passenger tire and I almost wrecked.His car being egged, well, I didn’t think anything of it at all and went about my business.

A few hours later he gets company and they tell him his car got egged. I know this because our houses are only about 10 feet apart and the windows were open, I could hear everything plain and clear. The whole conversation. He proceeds to automatically blame me and he also has a truck that apparently had gotten flat tires and other damage done to it, and he blames me for that too it seems.

I don’t know the guy, don’t know his name, he’s rarely home. Spoke to him once this summer and asked him to keep the noise down as he had people over and was outside with them and it was about 12:30am and my wife gets up at 5am and I do to as my son was going to summer camp early in the morning. I asked him to keep it down and they got quiet and that was the end of it, it was all good or so I thought.

Apparently this guy blames me for all this shit going on. he’s not worth my time or energy, and why the hell am I getting blamed?

Seriously, I must attract assholes for whatever reason. I don’t bother anyone, I try not to even leave the damn house unless I absolutely have to.

So I don’t know what the hell I’m supposed to do now. I did go to the police and they said there’s nothing they can do as there’s no proof, just a REALLY big coincidence that my van gets egged right after he blames me for his car getting egged.The officer understood and yeah he thinks the guy egged my van, but there’s nothing he can do about it without proof.

Life sucks, I just want to be left alone really….